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Why is it that whenever I'm in a bad mood, it's because of her?
I mean, seriously, it's SUMMER. I shouldn't be able to even think of her anymore.
And the worst thing is, I don't even have a specific REASON to hate her.
She's done so many things to me that I can't put it all in words.
So whenever I try to tell someone about how terrible she is, they don't get it.

I don't know how long I can stand pretending to be her friend.
Because I KNOW that she hates me, somehow she can slip out some of her hatred towards me without having anyone else notice.
And I can't tell anyone about it because they won't understand. I just can't explain it right.
So then they side with her.
I mean, I thought I was doing pretty good at ignoring her. I haven't even seen her since school.

And I've kinda been losing my friends too.
I haven't seen majority of them since school.
Emily has slowly been leaving me for Laura and Naomi and them.
She's probably getting bored of me.

And Maddy... She might be getting bored of me too.
I'm just so boring and plain. I don't know how NOT to be.


But I've also made some friends.
Well, I don't really stick well with Margot and company.
I try to include myself, but I just don't last long without being left out of the conversation.
There's Zoe, but she's kinda shy and I don't know how to make a good conversation with her without it being killed by one of us.
Corley could count as a friend. She's not as shy as Zoe and she also doesn't stick well with Margot and company. So we stick with each other, ya know?
And then there's Gus. He's the coolest kid EVER. He's probably my best friend right now. I mean, it's too bad he has a girlfriend. But I'm fine just being his friend. He can be kinda awkward at times, but I don't care. He's really funny (and cute). The only problem is that I probably will never see him ever again in my life after Friday.