eek a side effect of one of the medicines I'm taking- EXTREMELY realistic dreams that, no matter how hard I try, I can't wake up from until IT decides it's over..
And they're usually nightmares..
The other night I was running around a carnival like a chicken with it's head cut off, looking for my 2 year old nephew, Aedan. I was carrying him one minute and the next, he was gone. And every time I tried to ask someone if they'd seen him (I even had a picture of him) they didn't speak English!
Another one; I was lost on a cruise ship, looking for my parents while the ship was sinking in a storm. I couldn't wake up until the ship had capsized and I was trying like hell to bust a window out.
It doesn't matter what I do! I hit myself - my hand stops about three inches from my face. I try falling down - I stop (slowly and gently) a few feet from the ground. I scream at myself to wake up - people in my dream look at me like I've completely lost my mind and tell me I'm not dreaming.
It's 5am and I am NOT going back to sleep. It'll just start up again.. I don't seem to have these dreams nearly as often during the day, mostly at night. I started the medicine (actually the doctor upped the dosage because it wasn't working, and I was taking a very low dosage) Friday.. It's Sunday and I've had at least 5 of those dreams!
The one I just woke up from was the most realistic. When I made myself fall, it was on the back deck and I could see every splinter of wood. I felt it when I pinched myself VERY hard (it hurt bad) and the wood on the deck, the dirt on the floor (I have no idea why it was so filthy), the texture of a peace of doll clothing (denim with a cheap mesh/'lace' ruffle edge- and I knew this BEFORE looking at it!), the nasty slobber on a dog toy.. It was all crystal clear, just like I'm seeing and feeling right now!
I'm so damn tired, but I don't want to dream again.. I'm afraid of what might happen in it..
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