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Although my greatest fear has come, as so fast it has, I am not as much an emotioal wreck as I expected.

I always found it humorous when people name their dogs 'angel' or 'perfect' when the dog is a red zone case and out of control. Well I suppose you can say I've learned the same of people.

I had my love stripped away from me, from the inside out. Using my own lack of trust against me, I finally gave her the benifit of the doubt and didnt worry bout her new guy friend. And guess what happend?

I'm a virgin and intend to keep it that way reguardless how the giirl feels. my competitor feels the exact opposite twards women. Not a month into their relationship my false angel is already having pregnate scares.

His ex then found her way to me. A smart intelligent giirl, that would soon answer my parents' dreams of who i should be with, i agreed to try it loosly. Now I cant explain why, wether its that i am head over heels for giirls or if shes just the perfect person for this kid, Im not longer 'keeping it loose'. I love her with my head, heart, and soul. She has no gaia account so she is unable to see this. I wish she could. It would mean alot to her...

My only fear now is that I fall into this emotional trap again...