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OMG !! this pain inside me is just so killing me up ! im just so stress up today and i had no mood at all for the night . i dont even smile from just now . Gosh . The feeling is still inside me . i could feel it . When im typing out what im gonna say . I felt so so angry . Well let explain how this feeling started to happen . 1st after i reached home from class , i felt happy , i did my homework , watch tv , jokes with sis n mom . Then i started to get upset when my mom jokes turn to be harsh on me when she didnt realise it . So i ignore her and then the feeling little by little come to me more and more . I try to ignore the feeling but i CANT !! GOSH !! I HATE IT !! then i went to play some games , when i was playing, all of sudden the game got stuck/jam . I just wait coz mayb it just lag . Then i waited for long enough and the feelings came to me more. so i closed the game and go straight to watch the tv to relax my mind . But it didnt !! I try to be patient enough . Then the more irritating part is after i watch the tv for around a hour plus . I go to my sis and said nicely to her , Can i use the laptop ? I ask it bcoz she is using it for a LONG TIME oready !! Before that i got asked her what time will she be stopping ? She said , I dont know , but mayb a little longer . Thats before i played the stupid game . So u see how long she been using it . Then after i ask her if i can used it , she ignore me and dont even reply to what im saying , so i be patient again and on my bed and waited for her . Waited and waited but she still didnt reply to me . I cried inside my heart at that point of time . I really2 felt as if they dont care about me . I do care about them , that is why i am always patient . Im patient bcoz i pity them n i care of them . I let them have much longer time as they need . But i think do they have that thoughts for me ?? Do they care for me as i care for them ? Do they willing to be patient as i am to them . The patient is REALLY2 KILLING ME INSIDE . But i ignore it bcoz the patient is for u guys i love , for u guys i care .. I do it so that u guys could have more time so that u guys are happy . But NO ONE understand what im going through . The pain !! No one could feel it . The pain i sacrifice is for my family . They just dont understand me deep inside .. crying crying