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What hurts the most is being in love with a liar. What kills is the fact that they are using you. What really tears at your emotions is that they are seeing someone else when they're just toying with you...pretending. Is this really what the world's come to? Liars. All around us. Never quitting, never stopping. They don't give up until they are satisfied and the glorious part is...they're never satisfied. And to think I used to be in love with one. Me, of all people! I used to believe he was right and he was everything. God, was I wrong. Lying to be by me...using me until his pervertedness was filled...I am NOT to be messed with. I am OVER that. I was used by everyone, bossed by everything and now I'll stop for nothing. I used to be a liar too. I used to be just like him. But tell me, what happens when the world is just gray? Hmm? Tell me what anything means when in the end, no one hears these silenced screams. Tell me...what purpose do I have to care? I'm over it now. This is my new life. And THIS is just the beginning.

I have a plan...a devious disaster that he thought HE made up. They were planning this against me. They thought it was funny to watch my emotions range from happy to sad to angry. They have no idea what I'm capable of. They don't have a clue that I'm suppressing all of these emotions away from them because THEY CAN'T HANDLE ME. I am a demon. I told him this millions of times. Yet, he still tries to ******** with me. Whatever. You'll get what's coming to you...all thanks to me. I don't do these things for no reason at all, love. You think I'd just let you use me? I doubt it. I'm using you and when you find out that I will be YOUR destruction...then you can thank me for your death. Death is such a sure thing too. People around me have claimed that death was "scary" or just "unpredictable" but if you think about it...what if we're dead now? What if we need to just wake up? What if the sun doesn't always shine and what if the shadows don't just cover the corners? Ahh, delightful isn't it? To know that everything would be flipped. Everything is always flipped. And the biggest lesson to learn in this so called Life...is that you should never trust anyone. Not even me. You have no idea what I am.