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"Luna, Luna, LUNA!!!" My mother called out. "WHAT!!??" I answerd. "It's time for school, wake up you lazy girl." "Fine." I tumbled out of bed and walked to the bathroom. I paused and look in the mirror, disgusted with what I saw I looked away. My mother walked passed the door,"Luna, for god's sake shut the damn door when you go!" I slammed the door in her face. I picked up my make-up and put on my face. I took my hair and styled it. When I was finished I looked at myself again, hated what i saw, and when downstairs.
My dog keeped barking, I told him to shut up but he didn't listen, finally i hit him and he stopped. "First day of school!" My annoying sister shouted in my ear. Her name is May. My name is Luna. I am a thirteen year old school girl. I go to Bloomsburg Middle school and i hate it. My hair is brown and i have very dark brown eyes, almost black. I am tall and I very shy and weird. "Yeah May it's the first day." I answerd. I couldn't help but think as i walked out the door that something was not right, but i forgot about it and got in the car.
Half way to school and i was already thinking of the worst things that could happen, like my looking absolutly out of the ordinary. But thats who i was, I stood out and i liked it. My mother dropped me off and told me to have a good day, but that was impossible, it was the first day after all. I went into the school and saw on of my best friends. "Alice!" I cried. I ran to her and gave her a hug. She told me i looked fantastic, after all i did lose twenty pounds. I saw all of my other best friends and gave them all hugs. I went to my first period class, and i saw him. Ken his name was, i have been in love with him ever scence i say him the first day of 6th grade. I hated 8th already, all new teachers, rooms and scheduals.
"Hi, Luna" I didn't know the voice, i looked up. sure enough there he was. I stutterd "Uh h-hi Ken." "How was you're summer?" It was a disaster without you Ken, is what i wanted to say. "It was alright, not the best, but alright." "why was it just alright?" "well uh-i." I had no time, the bell rang. "Well gotta go, see ya around Luna." "By-Bye" Does he not realize that every time he walks passed me i almost fall on my knees overwhelmed? Or when we brush each others shoulders by mistake i almost faint? Can he not tell? I wrote this letter to him. Its called Girl In Pain: How do i say this? I am completely and madly in love with you! You are my soul, my being, and the center of my sadness. You have shot me down so many times, its simply pathetic. I have held my heart on my sleeve for you, i have givin you my heart, hoping it would not be broken in the process. However you did not just break it, you shattered it, you burned it, you did what was ever possible to break me down to tears and blood. Words cannot explain my feelings of sadness or love for you. I cannot change you're mind and i wouldn't if i could. I am not going to change for you, i don't expect you to change for me. I am just a plain girl in pain, what can i do? I love you with all my heart and always will, not matter what happens. Even though you have made up you're mind i still love you. I want you. Not him or him or that guy or the next. None of them, only you. You're different colored eyes are one of only many things i cannot love more about you. Those other girls, the don't love you the way i do. They love you for looks, you're money, body, and brains. Don't you get it? They are using you. I love you because you are who you are, not for anything like money or looks, but you. I only think of you!
I made it through the first six periods, then came lunch. Last school year i was so afraid of being judged that i was to frightened to even dump my tray. I went to dump it almost paralizyed. "Did you guys see the new math teacher yet? Oh is he hot or what?" My Friend Talyor is kind of a slut. My group answerd yes of course, I was just trying to be a quiet as possible. "Hey Luna, you okay?" Asked my friend Sadie. "Huh? Oh its nothing Sadie, nothing important." "C'omon Luna, you can tell me." "Its about Ken, you don't want to hear it." "Luna, I am you're best friend, of course i wanna hear it!" "Well, today before the bell rang, he came up to me and started a conversation, I was like what the hell?" "Thats not like him at all, is it sadie?" "No, its not, im actually happy for you Luna!" I just looked at her in amazment. "What in god's name are you talking about?" "This could be you're big break with him Luna! You guys could get married and have two kids!" Sadie was not a reality thinker, if you couldn't already tell. I grabed her by the arms and shook her. "Are you insane??!" "There is nothing that will happen between us, he made it clear last year." "Alright Luna, god." I got through lunch, Then came 7th period. "So how was you're summer again Luna?" I looked up, frightened. "It was fine" I tried to remain as cool as possible. "So Ken, how was you're summer?" "Wonderful Luna, I met this girl. She was wonderful" I was thinking that he was a jerk and i was just sitting in math like i was his ragdoll, untill i saw his eyes get soft. "She WAS wonderful? What happened?" He looked at me, i saw tears come to his eyes, the bell rang an he whipped his eyes.
 XxXMythrill GoddessXxX · Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 06:11pm · 0 Comments |
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