Who am I really?
Am I who I think i am?
Or am I hidding from something
Is this who I am?
Do I care?
I don't know
Do I just want them to see me for me?
Yes....
I want them all to see me as me
I dont really care if the laugh at me
Why?
I want to me that is why
Laugh as they may
This is me!
If they don't like
Then that is that
But yet something is still pulling me back.
Don't I want my family see me for who I am?
I do so
Then, I care so
So much I can't handel it
I ask myself
"Why, can't I be me? Aren't I good enough? You laugh at me, you sadden me, and yet you call me rude."
I want them see I'm something
I'm not the same girl before
I can't handle it forever
I want it to all stop
No one believe me?
JUST STOP ALREADY!
I thought you said you loved me
I thought you all cared!
I don't want all of you to look down on me
I'm really just this small, nothing girl to you?
I just want to live again
You didn't care back then who and how I act
Yet you care so much now
Aren't I just being me?
Please just stop
I'm me
You can't change that
So stop laughing
Stop trying to change me
Stop saying things that aren't true about me
Just stop
I just want to be me is all
I may cry
I may be sad
I may rude
I may not think
I may do things not nessarey
But that me all the way
What happening being that role model of mine?
It's like you guys are pushing me back
I may be the youngest
But I am growing up
Wouldn't you think you should stop making fun of me like I'm little?
Can't you all stop?
Why does only one can see that?
I'm not that little girl anymore
I'm more than that now
I keep walking with you all to only let you see me for me
But yet you are all blind
maybe I should walk away
Be me for once
And not care if you all care
I'm who I am
I want to be who I want to be
Youngest I maybe but this is me!
Look it in my eyes
I know you all went through this all
But mine will always be the longest
I grew up alone
I grew up playing alone
I grew up wanting someone to be there
To stand by me
To make this girl to smile again
I don't want to be alone any longer
That was before, now....I want, I need, someone here. No, I need my family here. I need them to finally open their eyes and heart on me. You are my family, right? Love me for me, not change me. I love you for you. Now please return that feeling. Please, I don't want to be alone again. Not again.....-Jenjen
 Taiyachi · Sat May 30, 2009 @ 08:35am · 0 Comments |
