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I must be the worst girlfriend ever, I feel awful I made Aaron's night go from worse to even worse. crying I love Aaron and care about him so much I don't want anything bad to happen to him. Not ever crying I want my muffins to be healthy and happy. But I can't care for him if....He's dead from an overdose of some booze! I don't have a right to tell Aaron what to do....I just wish he would lower the drinking a bit. I don't exspect him to just stop, cause I know it's hard to stop something your so used to doing all the time. But if he would just lower it to maybe a couple days instead of everyday It would make me feel so much better. I worrie about him so much.....He didn't need me whining, or saying things. I should have just kept my mouth shut. I'm scared...I'm scared because I don't my baby hurting himself anymore. It's just like the smoking thing....He stopped when he got hurt. Is he gonna wait until he get's hurt by the beer then stop? What if the beer's already hurting him....What if it's to late?...He can't die. Not now. Not when I need him so bad to help me get through this...I love him way to much to let the booze controll him.