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"I go and give half of my life force and then you go and kill my comrades?!" i screamed. I grabbed Kiri by her collar and threw her.
"Why didnt you kill me and Deidara with everyone else?! Comrades dont die alone!" i yelled at her. She slowly stood up and swayed, but gained posture. "Theyre not alone, they have each other, and now you have Deidara to yourself. Itachi cant bug you anymore. Isnt that what you wanted all your life Haru?" She said sarcastically. " I didnt want my life to end up where everyone i love dies, my father, The akatsuki, Hiru. But, you wouldnt know becasue your just a hell child!" I screamed at her. She just stood there and gave me a smile. "Why are you smiling?! Are you that twisted or something?! I thought you loved Itachi Kiri! I thought You loved Hidan and Kisame! I know Hidan loved you more than jahsin himself! Thats a sin on his soul and hes willing to do that for you! Then you just up and kill him?! He may have always said he wanted to kill you, but thats becasue you were younger than him and stupid and immature! But now! Youre a woman! Look at you Kiri! Are you stupid?!
"Heh...Heh heh....heh heh heh ha ha! You think i give a damn about itachi or Hidan?! They were nothing to me! I did you a favor and you should be grateful and take it!" she hissed. "Then just kill me....I have no use for life if you took away almost everything i had left. Kill me Kiri, i want to see how far you'lle go." I said. She gave a confused look at me. "Go on! You have enough balls! Do it!" I yelled. I bared my fangs like an animal.She took one step every couple of seconds. She was hesitant and scared, i could smell her fear and hear her heartbeat. "Do it you wuss! Youre not gonna chicken out like you did on mist are you?! Kill me Dammit!" I yelled. "S-shutup!, there was a delay and thats none of your buisness!" she screamed back. "I thought you were my frined! You backstabber! We thought, the akatsuki thought you would be with us the whole way in dominating this world! How could you do this? How could you?!" I got down on my knees and put my head down. "Strike me, just do it....im tired of living, im tired of your bullshit Onee-chan! Just do it and get it over with!" "what about Deidara?!" Kiri said through clenched teeth. "I dont care anymore! I dont care about my life! Its no use anyway! Were all dying Kiri! Leaf has flurished and theylle be here soon, i dont want my father to see my death befor ehis eyes, nor the peole i betrayed so logn ago.....You dont understand..what it feel like to be me!" I was begginig to cry now. "you dont know what i had to endure ot get this far! I had to slay my own family out of hatred and kill evryone last person i could lay my murderous hands on! I did it out of hatred! You did it out of revenge for youre family! Theres a difference! I hated my family, you loved yours! Mine abused me and raped me physially and mentally! you lived the high life while i lived i poverty and abuse. I never really had anyone to love me! You had everything i couldnt ever have! and look at me now! Ive got what i can get and im being hunted!*sigh* Youlle never understand........you have to be me.....or Deidara to understand the ehardships. We sat therough it the whole way. Being called freaks, having things thrown at us, me being the talk of the history about being a vampire. Having my house burned down by neighborhood kids. But Deidara was worse, He had his sister to rely on, she was so kind and sweet, and he killed her for her own good......His mother and father hated him. His father would beat him senseless Kiri!" I was whimpering as i said all this, i was spilling my past now for her. " Theres so much more you should know about me.....but you cant."

I got up and ran into her and embarced her, snivellign like a baby on her shoulder, 2 grown women comforting each othe rover losses. "Kiri.....please just kill me.........please.." I whimpered.

~~~~To be continued~~~~~~