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I'm going back to the way I was, ******** everything that has made me upset. I'm going to be happy again and no one is going to stop me.
And I know it's easy to say
But it's harder to feel
This way.
And I miss you more than I should
Than I thought I could
Can't get my mind off of you.
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Something has been wrong with me over the past few days. I'm not sure what it is. It feels strange. Like an aching. I dunno. I just havn't felt my self.
I feel emotional or something along those lines. I seem to be hurt easily...by small things people are saying and doing, I just hurt. Something is seriously wrong.
It's really sad that I can't seem to stand up straight on my own, I always need someone there. No matter how independent I want to be, I will always need someone there. I feed off of touch and affection and gentle voices and actions. I can;t function properly without those things.
When I try to be independent I usually make my situation worse.
Sometimes it feels as though I can't tell anyone whats going in fear they may think it's not a huge issue...just something small and they will think i'm over-reacting. I'm a weird one.
Not to mention I hate the fact that even though I can try so hard to be a better me, I still hurt the ones I love, I still screw up and have to try and pick up the pieces by my self. Ive never felt quite so stupid in all my years...seems as I get older I become worse and wrose a person, no matter how hard I try to be the person that others will love.
I guess I just want to please everyone.
I guess...I just want too much and I ask too much of people.
All the time.
Even whe I think it's not asking much, it probably is. I'm just desne like that.
 Guilt-na Doll · Sat Apr 11, 2009 @ 06:21am · 0 Comments |
