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Ok people listen up. (or in your case, get ready to read.)
My life is falling into the darkness......yet again.
My health has not improved at all, I can't even run in gym class without feeling like I'm going to pass out. I love running. It's not my fault...
My grades are failing...it's mostly because of my homework...
My sister is going to drive me into a early grave. She is being worse then those kids on the "Nanny 911" shows.
I haven't gotten to talk to my boyfriend in what feels like forever.
I'm getting to the point where I just want to run away or lock myself away for eternity or maybe even DIE.
I know that I shouldn't be thinking like this, but I at the end of my rope.
....I even....pick up on a old habit that I said I quit....
I feel trapped again.
The only time I feel at least a little happier is in my dreams and my writing...but even those are starting to fail me....
My friends see how much pain that I'm in....I think....but does anyone really try to help? No. I don't think so. Even when they try...they just get wrapped right back into their own problems, which I am force to try to help them with. (due to my nature.)
I don't know what to do anymore...