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I am drowning I am getting deeper in despair with every second that goes by without to think that I could be sadder and deeper in that pit then I ever was before I thought was inpossible then I lost him and the struggle I had to get out of it a feel back in crashing to the bottom and sinking deeper then I have ever been before as I claw at the sides trying to climb out and my hands bloody from the struggle I fail to keep ground with the sinking and I can’t keep ground, the pit is deeper then the sea now but yet I still fight and struggle failing and become weaker my strength I had was him and I lost him now I a fragile shell where the slightest breeze well break that shell…….. I hide behind a mask of happiness and rightness when everything is empty and not right……how can I explain to people that I am sinking…..sinking deeper and deeper at a faster pace everyday but I well fight even though I can’t gain ground it seems……..even though I sink deeper I do have a few people helping me from going to deep, from thinking to much on how far I have sunken this pit that is in my mind and my despair……..but sadly they don’t know how important they are or the help the give me I can barely stay a float but I well keep fighting if they are there but with out those few I be to weak to fight……….i am starting to give up and give in and let the darkness ingulf me completely…………if that happens I might lose myself forever but then maybe I would feel better……………………I am to weak to fight much longer……I am about ready to kiss the darkness and ask it to engulf me forever.