Today is April Fools. I can’t seem to find anything funny or happy about today, or any day after this. I don’t feel depressed… never mind, I lied. I do feel depressed. I don’t really know what to do anymore.
I can’t do anything without thinking about how ******** up life is. I can’t MEAN IT when I smile, because I’ve lost any happiness that I was still holding on to. It’s been drained out of me. I can feel the life inside slowly sneaking away, waiting until I’ve given up holding on to hope, to escape and never come back.
I’m thinking of death, but I’m scared. I want out. I just want out.
 OMG pls no · Thu Apr 02, 2009 @ 07:44am · 0 Comments |
