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Hello people bored enough to read my journal. ^ ^
I was told to update so update I shall. (keep in mind its like really late so there will be more typos than normal wink ) K so how about after a couple of weeks after Ken and I broke up I kinda began to gain what I call a "subtle appretion for solitude." Meaning I was finding myself well more or less enjoying being alone. NOt just romanticly but like I even began to nudge myself away from my friends. No dramatically but I learned to just enjoy my friendships cautiously.
Anyway after a few weeks Ken called me back and told me that he loved and missed me and wanted me back. At first I completely accepted and answered immediatly. However after he and I hung up I kinda thought for a lil while and began to think that maybe I should just remain alone for a lil while. Not sure why, I just began to enjoy being more or less alone... so I asked for an extra day to think about it. In a way he seemed kinda relunctant to be ok but in the end he hadn't much choice.
Ultimately I realized that I did indeed want to be with him. And even needed him. So here we are, together again and quite happy. He'll probably be comming in July and I couldn't be more excited. You have no idea how bliss I feel hearing hims say I love you again. ^ ^
However I must admit I'm kinda remaining in the background. Coty has taken notice and I think it's begining to upest him. I've been engaing myself less in conversation (which isn't like me) and more in thought (which I normally do only in private) He keeps asking me what is wrong and I can tell that he is genuinly concerend. Which I must admit is kinda sweet. i don't know...he's been acting kinda sweet toward me a lately. Not alot but if you know him and understantd him well enough you'd know he's gotten a lil tender. Bout damn time!!!!! ^ ^
It's a lil odd though...