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Kiddies, teenies, adulties.

I think I'm too nice.

I love helping people. But I try to be smart enough not to be used be people. But sometimes it doesn't work. Sometimes most people think that I'm stupid, but I'm just trying to help people.

When I bump into someone, its hard to apologize. My mind is used to 'don't say sorry, they'll only make fun of you' And what my mind tells me is true. Sometimes when I bump into someone or I do something stupid and mess up something and say 'oh sorry!' I can hear people giggling. Ah, what a dork I am. - _ -

Also when people want something from me, half of the time I will give it to them. Example: I gave Ogie a pencil. He never gave it back. Blah, whatever, idc.
Another Example: Someone who's a jerk asks for a pencil. I say no. They say 'fine b***h, etc

I also think of other people instead of myself. I will help people on an assignment before I work on mine. It just makes me feel good.

But I can be rude or mean, then realize after it. I have trouble saying sorry when I hurt people's feelings, or I make them mad.

I'm kind of going of topic here. But its not such a big problem in life, its just really weird.


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Why aren't good people properly rewarded? Countless times I've seen such mean people get always what they want, its just stupid. Good people get all the crap. Its like... mean people grab all the nice stuff, and the good people get all the trash.

Its not fair. I know the world isn't, but that isn't fair.

At all.

I don't believe in Karma because of this. It just isn't real. Well in my point of view.

I feel kind of bitter typing this. Maybe I should stop.

~Vanessa