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All I can say is that I feel horrible, and I've done nothing for once. Well, now I'm supposed to be doing my homework, and it's about 10:30 at night, and I'm only halfway done, but that's okay, because I have some things I need to say.
One, Anastasia, if you ever read this, I'm sorry. I'm not trying to flirt with him, and I've done nothing out of malicious intent towards you. I'm not going to go out with him, not now, not ever. I have a boyfriend, and I can't help it if Ryan's drawing hearts with his name and mine in it. We just sit next to each other, and even that is assigned. So please don't hate me for this. That's my one request.
And Brady, I need you to forgive me as well. For never having time, for not being able to call you, even if none of those things are my fault (well, the rowing thing is, but you get the idea). I do love you, I swear to god I do, nothing has, and nothing will ever change that. If on the off-chance you read the thing above this, there is no way in hell I'm leaving you for anyone, ever. I'm sorry out of the base of my heart, and I want to see you on Saturday, on Friday, well, I want to be able to see you everyday. But since that isn't possible, I want to see you as often as I can manage. I miss you so much it hurts. It hurts from the inside out, a dull ache, and a longing. I love you dosen't even begin to cover it. If you asked me to run away with you right now, I would say yes. It scares me, and I would be shocked, but I would wholeheartedly agree. So now I want to thank you. For being there, for calling, for being hilarious when I need it most, and for occasionally telling me to do my homework assignment when I really need to get it done. And even when you know it's for my own good, for still being sad when we have to hang up. For that phone call on valentine's day. I'll never forget how you kiss. I never will. And that, I guarantee, is how I feel, now and forever.