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I feel it in my heart
Something is wrong
Terribly wrong
I hold my breath
Hoping it’s not true
That I’m just over-reacting again
But soon my fears are concrete
I knew it was too good to be true
The air thickens
I feel suffocated
The tears well up in my eyes
And silently fall on my pillow
The room is hot and humid
Or maybe it’s just me
Learning that hope
Doesn’t change anything.
It just acts as a barrier
Between me and reality.
My feelings will never change
I don’t want them to.
Even now, with my heart in many little pieces
This terrible heart-ache you caused
I still hope
Hope
That you’ll make everything better
Make me better.
Because deep down,
I don’t really think that it will end like this.
You’ll realize someday
What you’ve lost.
But maybe it’s just a hope.
Hope
That will bring me to my knees once more.