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When you're me...you've gone through five stages....You get your first girlfriend halfway into the first semester of freshman year. Three weeks later, she gets a friend to break up with you...these are them.

1. Sadness- You realized that something you did set it off...and you go home to cry..thinking "It was my first relationship! What did I do?" Maybe it wasn't meant to be, yet you've lost all hope...

2. Hate- You go to school the next day and cuss out your Girlfriends break-up tool. Thinking she was the one who made it happened, she persuaded her to do it. You are partially defiant in a way, thinking that you did nothing wrong, even when that girl goes to cry in a corner.

3. Defiance- Getting home that day, you realize that she couldn't have made it happen and nothing was really wrong..it was all a bad dream. But it wasn't..you just want to thin that.

4. Obsession- You go to school next semester, many many months after the break up, and you realize you want her back, even though someone else took your spot. You feel as though you should beat the s**t out of your replacement, yet you stay back..hoping that he'll leave her or she'll leave him...knowing(but not accepting) somewhere inside..it won't.

5. Depression(current stage)- You realize in March, around current day..it's not gonna happen, she's not gonna break up with him, nor him to her. Their inseparable...the perfect match...You start to break down more..like cry in the middle of class...You realize how crappy it's been for you. All of your life even. Middle school was a hell hole, and now high school. You start having thoughts of suicide and other things...hoping that they either happen to you..or your heart just gives out, because of your pain.

You see, the human body is complex, and that is what makes us..."unique"..this can happen over and over again, these stages of breaking up..or just realization on life's past difficulties...you know you hate it...and my stages have reached an intimate peak.