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Is it bad for me to feel utterly alone? I mean I love my boyfriend to death. He's so amazing but...with him being in Maryland and me...well not I just I feel completely alone. Like I'm to picky for my own good. There are plenty of guys who would love to hold me as I cried but like..I'd rather cry alone than to have 1 of them put their arms around me. Nothing against them but if I dont feel a certain connection with them then I don't want them near me when I'm upset. Infact there are only 2 guys that I want comfort from. Coty and Ken (my bf) But Coty...I can't count on him to be there for me anymore. And it sucks because even though half the time it's Coty who makes me cry and even still I'd like him be there to dry my tears. And Ken he does the best he can from where he's at. I mean we talk and txt as much as possible but for some reason...I just feel completely alone. Like I have no one there for me. Is that bad that I feel that way while Ken does all that he can... I only have maybe 2or 3 people I consider friends and I just...I feel that I'm all by myself here. I just can't seem to get what I want...or what I need...