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Ive been so out of it lately I don't feel like myself anymore...
Its so weird I can't handle it and also I can't function pro-
perly anymore....Can someone shut me off and fix me?
Please anyone just fix me or at least put me away not
to be seen by anyone again...
Can anyone fix a broken heart anymore? This hearts been
hurt a little to much we I was a little kid so now I not like
everyone else....It suck you know? This emptiness I get
most of the time when I start to get happy or sad all I
do is think about those moments and it puts me right
were I was at in the beginning....
That single moment took most of my sanity with it
After that every thing was always in a haze or a blur...
Really but would I better off dead or suffering right now
trying everyday to get through it all with my mask on
everyday for the rest of life?I think it would be best but
then what about the people I love and care about? what
would they do be sad?Care?Mourn?Go on with there lives?
What should I do get help?Get help?! GET ******** HELP?
NO why the fu-ck should I I mean I seriously twisted and sick
but I can't be that bad to actually need so damn help?

No what just fu-ck the rest of them!They can all go to hell for
all I care now!Ha why not we have been to ******** nice to
everyone so why not let lose and be our real selves for once!
A cold hearted person that want comfort and to just be normal
for once in her ******** life!!Yeah that would work so ********
well now huh?So now we should be normal huh doesn't seem
likely now to weird since then and can't be the same again now
can I?FU-CK FU-CK FU-CK FU-CK WHY THE HELL NOT!?!?!?!?!