I just started this acount today :]
okayz so school started in Jersey if you don't know I moved to New Jersey on December 20 from California it is feezing here! but the snow is absolutely amazing I don't really have any friends, except for Sam who is also a new girl at the school she moved over from south korea... okay thats it about that
I miss my friends I hate talking on the phone and i feel like im sort of ignoring them... I also just admitted to myself that I AM bisexual and haven't come out of the closet to my close friends in california or my family only one freind on gaia whom I trust very much, i don't plan on coming out of the closet any time soon although I very much want to tell my family and friends and I know that they will all accpet it, I just hate talking about that sort of thing, it makes me feel incredably unconfortable like more than a normal person would be....
other than that life update now here comes the little "I feel so sorry for myself update"
I seem happy a lot when people talk to me here or if the see my profile, but Im not I really don't unerstand much of anything. I barely ever talk at school I was usually pretty loud but that's because all of my friends were VERY loud and outgoing and in their our group I was the quiet one now in a new school people asked me a lot of questions and I answered very shortly and bluntly because i don't like talking much people think that im a b***h but im really just shy but not in the cute girl next door way. I only have one friend and she is so quiet that i have to talk or else no one talks and I hate that! my friends were so loud to be friends with them was easy all I really did was throw in a sarcastic or funny sex joke now and then and I was golden. My low self esteem definately doesn't help me much either here. New Jersey is really cold.... I wish I could make friends but my new school is SO tiny only 400 or maybe 500 hundred students! my old school had 1200 and in the school I only had six friends, what is the ratio there? either way it's pretty damn low. The teachers are all pretty nice though i guess. The town is tiny and I wish someone would talk to me and we would just click and become friends but NO im the awkward girl who fits in with no one!! I wish I had the type of friend that I could talk to about anything and everything and we could have a good time anywere doing anything, i've never had a friend like that or ANYBODY like tat. No one to confide in or trust even my best friend since fifth grade I never really trusted. I suppose I have trust issues, of course no one knows about any of this because I never talk about my feelings, I'm starting to think that I have some ******** up mental issues or something! in other words...
HELP
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