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I haven't been feeling too good about myself lately. So much happening at once. Lust for a companion, loss of a future/hope, loss of friends, and so much more. I wrote this to help make me feel better, sorta worked for a few minutes, but now I feel awful again. emo

She liked to say good-bye,
as she cries the last 1000 tears,
that are tainted with the bad,
posioned with the memories,
and covered in the thoughts of herself.
Her out look of the world,
is not what normal girls should think about.
But she manage to break those rules,
and brought her no virtue,
no freedom or security,
from what this heartless demon that is herself.

The closest one's in her life are to far away,
they cant help now,
not ever.
Never will.
She has broken too many hearts,
including her own.
She will never stop unless she's dead,
but even if that happens,
hearts will still break.
She want to feel better about herself,
but that will never as long as she lives.
She walked the wrong path for too long,
its to late to switch,
to late to change.

To scared to end this worthless life of hers,
fear of what might happen while she's gone,
or what will happen to herself.
The world's biggest loser cries out for help,
but never receives because of how weird she is.
Lost in the sea of pain,
Stranded on the lonliest island in the world.
What she is now was carved by all the events,
of who had stolen from her,
robbed and neglected.
Who she is now is who she'll forever be.
Too late to change who she is,
awaiting for that one to change her destiny.
Hopefully before its too late.
Who is the girl that cries so loud,
yet doesn't reach a single person.
This girl who cries,
is me.