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not jokeing... *sigh* almost a year ago I stupidly tried to make myself scizophrenic but was soon talked out of it by my mother and I left it alone... at least my concious mind did, my subconcious however did not leave well enough alone... least that's what we think happend. My phycological mind now had three gaint holes in it that my subconcious filled with differant parts. One got all my lusty and voilent thoughts and tendences, the other all my emotions and spiritualality, and the last was filled with my logical thoughts. Other time these 'areas' became personalities, just personalities, no independent thought of their own. Just me with another persona. Then something happened, we don't remember what but Shadic (my darker persona) had his first independent thought... 'kill'. Since then the other two (Lighivas my concience, and Menos my mind) gained their own sentience... and my life went straight in the crapper. Shadic was a monster who would cyber and think of women as little more then 'a good ********'... till he met Jessie, and after their first cyber session she lied down with him and turned him from a monster... into a man... to quote him "it was like reality had been put into a frying pan and smashed into my head"
He cried that night, and begged us to forgive him... and we did. However just cause he now thought of women as fellow humanbeings didn't stop him from cybering with them... though thanks to him I haven't had any sexual urges to any other women but my girlfriend.