i feel like such a baby. there is a boy at my school that im in complete love with but i dont have the guts to ask him out.
sometimes i tell myself that the reason i dont ask him is because he is 3 years older then me and my mom dont like him but still, like i would listen to her on this and the age thing is and has never been a problem for me so i dont know what my deal is.
other times i tell myself that the reason is because his ex would beat the s**t out of me but i know she is all bark and no bite so that doesnt work then there is this girl that he walks to classes with and sits at lunch with but everyone swears they are just friends. even if they are i dont want to like make her mad because she was gonna ask him out ( if he says yes) she is scary!!!
then there are the times its him that makes me not want to ask. he is a very intimidating person because of his quiet reputation ( dont talk a lot) but then again he makes me want to jump out at him in the hall and kiss him... uggg!!!! i wish that i could just either have the guts or if he likes me to ask me. do you know how frustrating it is when you wanto to ask someone out but you cant because your scared that people will make fun of you saying darian your to fat to go out with him. life sucks... love sucks...................... i suck! but of course i still want him. i tell myself all the time just suck it up and ask him but im not the type to just go after a guy like that im not sexy or flirty or out there or even all that pretty i think and with that on me i cant do it. pray for me!!! help me be brave!!! and pray that he is stupid anough to love me back!!! LOL heart
AND THE HARDEST PART IS THE FACT THAT EVERY TIME I LOOK AT HIM HE IS STARING AT ME TO!!! WE HAVE THE TRADITION OF LOOKING EACH OTHER IN THE EYE WHILE WE WALK BY EACH OTHER NOW
please comment back and give me advice!! it will mean a lot to me!!
sekalblrig Community Member 
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