-first. i'm so excited. 3rd in my class! that's like major! two ppl away from my goal!
-second. i love him. haha. yesterday was amazing and if only it could be like that 24/7. but with no classes with him-that's next to impossible.
-third. laughing. just because of some people.
-fourth. deshnny. i miss you. still doesn't seem real. to be honest... i haven't cried. because i am yet to realize you aren't coming back... :[
-fifth. tennis. is flippin amazing. it's my one passion!
-sixth. photography. also flippin amazing. a great way to express yourself. it's funn, and others can see the beauty.
-seventh. still laughing. haha. sowwie i'm just in a great mood, the past two days have been the best this semester.
-eighth. friends. i love you guys so much! seriously. you know who you are! and i'm so glad to get rid of those fake friends and have you! i love spending time with my friendys! there's to many to list.
-ninth. music. let yourself go. it's so easy to escape the world and relax. not that i need to right now, but seriously it's almost as comforting as my woobie. -wink- ;]
-tenth. love. back to this. joy! haha. seriously i've never felt this way. he's amazing. that doesn't even cut it. i've fallen for players, jerks, the whole thing. yet... he's different. down-to-earth. not to mention hot. he's so nice, and we flirt. i forget everything when i'm with him...
-eleventh. the future. is unknown. i have my plans though. in the near future i'd like to be with him for real. later i want to be valedictorian get my frickin hot car [CHALLENGER, babie!] and go to college becoming a marine biologist/zoologist. part time photographer. i'll live in my current home, and having kids if that's the Lord's will.
-twelth. high school. is awesome. in our group there's not many fights now that some people left. funny, huh? well anyway, i'm having the time of my life, living every moment fully, hangin with friends, being with HiM!, spending time with family, and just being me. what can i say? i'm only a teenager once, better make it funn!
-thirteenth. why? am i doing this anyway? really am i just that bored kos my cell phone's charging and i really don't feel like calling anyone? or maybe...
-fourteenth. this is funn. really. kos it's like writing a journal for the world. maybe i glimpse into my life? if that's possible. most don't know me, even those that think they do. [cough cough] HAHA. i'm really hyper.
-fifteenth. mara. my bestie. yea, we don't get to hang out of school. because of my mom. but whatever, we are best friends. no matter what. sowwie for those of you jealous you ain't got a friendship like this, you know who you are. you think we're drifting, but it ain't true. never. it's called "besties for life" for a reason: kos we are for life! she's my blind simease twin and that's that. can't wait to drive the chocolate motorhome, and play in more sandboxes, paddle boating for hours, naming pets after street signs, screaming at innocent opposums, and all those other memories.
i love you bestie.
-sixteenth. kendra. you crack me up! you are so funny. i can't imagine how boring high school'd be without you! lonna and mabel for ever! i'll see you friday night at the senior center! haha.
-seventeenth. HiM. back to comp. class... hours flirting with you. hours helping you. hours talking to you. hours of blushing. hours of stares. hours of smiles. hours of butterflies. hours of pure joy. hours of laughing with you. hours of shy-ness because of you.
hours with him.
-eighteenth. this might not be healthy. haha.
-ninteenth. help. i'm here if you need advice. i'm always offering advice to people, so really don't be afraid to ask.
-twentieth. me. there's people that say they know me even those old best friends. but they don't. they have no clue. i'm my own person. i know who i am, so really their opinions don't matter.
[you know who you are] really it's a blessing to get away from the drama. so. thanks. i appreciate what you said to me over the phone. because i don't need to put up with that, and i'm glad i got away. i don't regret being friends, there's always those memories. it's nice to be free. so. thanks again, and goodbye.
