Yet again I'm up in the middle of the night, can't sleep. I'm starting to wonder if this is because I'm not used to sleeping alone anymore. You know I'm used to sharing the room with someone else when I'm off to school. At home, my room is empty or so I hope. I seem to be scared of my room. The fact critters are everywhere, or the fact a paper bag with a mouse trap has lately been looking wet. <I think something is in the bag...> I just can't sleep. I can't wait for morning to come and take me back to college. A place where I'm not alone. I feel more brave when others are around. I seem to feel like a coward when I'm alone. I mean yay I'm alone now, but I feel fine. If I go crawl back in bed, I'll feel like something is there and become scared. Perhaps I'm just going insane as the days drag on.
Or it's not company that makes me stay up. It may be the position I'm trying to sleep in. I need to be sitting somewhat up in order to breathe but lately I've been laying back or flat. I breathe heavily but I sleep. However I can't seem to get in the right spot to sleep.
Whatever the reason it's happening at my dorm room as well. Over the weekend I tried to sleep in my dorm bed and couldn't either. I was alone in the room and couldn't find a suitable position. However, if I went to my boyfriends room I could eventually fall asleep.
What am I to do? I need sleep, I'm really mean without it...
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