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Morning. P.E. is over and done with so I begin to stroll down to 2cnd period, guessing Ms.Vincench would have another sub.

A flash of Caitlyn, with her infectious smile fed my mind for a quick second, but I maintained. My heart started to race, knowing I'd face her next period.

The halls became bright white when a shadowy figure stabbed me from behind; pierced through the heart. Immediately, I collapsed onto my knees, with my hands free showing my innocence. My already lifeless body was thrown to the floor. I lie there, with red liquid gushing from my chest and seeping into the cracks in the floor.

Shaking my head, I realized it was all but a day dream and I moved on.

Once arriving at class, I felt as if I swallowed my own heart. The beating could be felt inside my throat. Careful to speak in case I were to cough up my heart, I did so anyway. I spoke to Caitlyn as if we were long-time buddies that were forever close.

Later on I had teased her about Lynett not being in class, but once she returned from the office, I could feel my heart sink back to where it should have been. Who knows, it could have sunk deeper, and broke in 2.

Trying to ignore Lynett's seemingly vindictive charm that attracts Caitlyn so well was not easy to accomplish.

I stared at my paper, which I had eventually finished.
Every1's voice chimed in my head, but Lynett's the only 1 comprehensible.

I am trying to change, for you.
You have helped me.

I threw away all the glass, and the pocket knife to prove to you I can be better.
But obviously I could do anything now and you would never take me back.
You're too busy trying to replace me, with your fresh, new rebound girl.

Have her, ******** her. Prove that you're a whore!
I know you aren't though.
You are a wonderful, brilliant girl.
I love your smile. When you smile, time stands still and I can only see you.
I miss you.

But I understand.
I understand way more than you could ever imagine I do.

I was the 1 going through the torture, but caused you to be in worse.

I deeply regret every horrible action I have done, and every unmentionable word or sentence that I may have uttered.

Caitlyn, I'd give you the world and more if i could.
Don't change, you're perfect.