LoL well I've some how tried it and it made me happy when i wasn't happy in the binging not a bad why to make you feel good on Christmas when you wake up to shouting and no not shout of enjoyment. i dont know why i had some probably because i was drunk and yea i think i wanted it and trust me its not bad it nothing and im not just saying that it nice. But dont take it and if you do dont take it a lot because that is when it f*cks you up and that's stupid. BTW no its not cool it didn't make me feel like that made me happy and that's the only good thing about it, but yea if you are reading this its not good to do it and if you think oh yea makes you happy so why not take it all the time trust me dont i understand what it dose to you.
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Anyway part from the morning of christmas I've ad a good time at my brothers he didn't really get me drunk ha ha ha better luck next time but he got me high so yea rofl lovey Christmas dinner. Didn'T really get many presents but more then I thought I would get. only thing i wish was to be with my mum for dinner but no my neighbor stole her and i couldn't come because there d*cks. so yea that makes it five Christmas without my mum and about seven without my Dad. Don't really like christmas had some bad things happen at christmas, well really not too much of a nice life better then some but i handle it better then some people would so im happy i can. I've been through so much from a young age and i know how that can effect some children into adult hood but im not to bad, yea there's some things that has been effect in my life but try to have fun even when I'm not happy because i can.
i am more softer then i used to be with my feelings but that's because i understand more as i got older but still very strong to just get on with what ever it here is.
I just try to remember happy thing but most of my happy memories have something at the same time as when that happy memories was made that turns it into sh*t but most of my best memories are being with friends and doing thing with my family when nothing gos wrong but my best are with friends and that might be why i love them more then most of my family because they give me a full good memory that makes me feel like im belong in this world.
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ok end off that i just drag on but I've been told to keep writing if that's the only way i can get some feelings out so why not it works ok better then some things.
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