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My stepfather got mad at me because I got on his computer.
So he goes, "AILENE. WHY THE HELL CAN'T YOU BE HONEST WITH ME? BE HONEST WITH YOURSELF. BE WHO YOU TRULEY ARE."
And, in my mind, I was like, "How the fck should you know who I am? Most of them I'm with you, you're ******** yelling at me how I'm so ugly or fat."
Gawd! I'm so pissed at myself! Why can't I be more brave!? I'm so scared! You should've seen me, I was just standing there, staring at the wall.
And he went, "You might as well ******** run away, OH YEAH. YOU CAN'T. BECAUSE YOU'RE SO SCARED. Not like, I would care anyways. Mommy doesn't care about you, Dylan doesn't care about you. No one would care."
I just wanted to slam the damn door in his face and yell, "No one would care about you either! THAT'S WHY ALL OUR RELATIVES HATE US NOW."
Goodness! I hate myself! Why am I so stupid? I try to be the best I can be, yet they find the SMALLEST flaw about me and yell at me about it.
They say I have no friends; I HAVE MORE FRIENDS THAN THEY HAD IN THEIR LIFE!
They say no one likes me because I'm ugly; LOOK AT THEM! I got my ******** genes from my mother! So, don't effing blame me!
They tell me to drink more milk, so I can be taller; I'M TALLER THAN MY ******** MOTHER. SO, I'M SHORT? I DON'T THINK SO.
They tell me to lose some weight and look like those skinny white bitches at my school; Yet they won't let me go outside, and even when I REFUSE to eat, THEY ******** SHOVE THE PLATE DOWN MY THROAT!
They say they're the nicest parents in the world, and they don't want to hurt me; Than why are they still hurting me!? YOU'RE NOT ONLY HURTING ME PHYSICALLY! YOU HURT ME EMOTIONALLY! THAT'S WHY YOU ******** WENT TO JAIL FOR 3 DAYS. BECAUSE OF ABUSING. That's right. I can tell the police on you, and you BOTH will just go to jail longer. Yeah, I'll go to an orphanage.
But any place is better than this.
When I was in 5th grade, I told on you. I told on you BOTH. You both received a letter that said, you've been neglecting and abusing me. Yeah, you both kept sobbing. Think about how I felt. I could just tell them again, and you will go to court. Hell yeah.
I'm NOT selfish. I THINK ABOUT OTHERS MORE THAN YOU. You two always go around, buying stuff for Dylan!
"Oh, DYLAN! YOU CAN HAVE THIS. AND THIS. AND THIS."
And, when I come, you just stare and say, "Oh."
kajgddkl;sjgadlkjlkjdgl;kajdl;jhgk! JUST ******** YOU! GOD DIDN'T GIVE YOU A BAD CHILD. GOD GAVE ME ******** HORRIBLE PARENTS.
I DON'T CARE ANYMORE. YOU WERE RIGHT, 'MOMMY AND DADDY'.
GOD CAN STRIKE ME WITH A LIGHTNING BOLT. You both can live your HAPPY lives without me. Because you know what? I DON'T GIVE A FLYING ******** ABOUT YOU. I TRIED BEING HAPPY AROUND YOUR EMPLOYEES.
That's why your employees hate you and always quit! You two are ASSHOLES. You buy them gifts, but really, YOU SUBTRACT IT FROM THEIR PAY DAY!
And, I can talk to BOYS if I want too! IT'S A FREE COUNTRY. GOODNESS. I know I'm still young, BUT WHY CAN'T I HAVE THEM AS MY FRIENDS? DON'T YOU WANT ME TO HAVE FRIENDS? WHAT? YOU WANT ME TO BE LESBIAN NOW!?
MAKE UP YOUR ******** MIND.
OKAY!?

My rant of the day. Because, my parents are bitches. I hope they go to Heaven and I go to Hell. So I won't see their ******** asses ever again. That'll be the happiest day of my life.