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OK!!! so, i very recently sent this as a comment to a friend, explaining a delimma of mine. i thought it was rather interesting, so here goes!!
ok, so i was dating this guy, i really liked this guy. i got scared. i thought that i couldn't be true to him because we lived a ways away. so i broke it off with this guy so i wouldn't hurt him any worse down the road becuase of stupid actions. i hurt this person, and it hurt me a helluva lot too. a few months passed, and i thought i got over this guy. i started dating james at said point. i couldn't get close to james, and i didn't know why. james and i went to the dance, we danced and such. when it came time for the slow dance, i couldn't look him in the eye. why? i thought he'd kiss me, and i was scared. i didn't know why. i meen, we were dating, right? then the last slow song came on, and it hit me like a brick wall. i wanted it to be the other guy there with me, i wanted to look up and see him smiling at me. eventually, of course, they took me home. by that time, it was farely obvious that he was trying to kiss me at the door. instead, i inconspicously turned my head away, and gave him a quick hug. i decided that leading him on any longer would be terrible, so i broke it off the other week. i'm trying to patch things up with the other guy, but he doesn't really seem to want to talk about it. Personaly, i dont blame him at all, i've been a b***h. i've let my anger out on him before, i've tried to piss him off, but not once has he ever been pissed at me. mad, sure, most people do get mad at me at some point. i'm very sorry for what i did to him, i wish i could take it all back. i wish that i would never have done it in the first place. i wish sooo many things, but they'll probably never happen.
 Mod144 · Fri Dec 19, 2008 @ 02:30am · 0 Comments |
