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Gaia
It gets a little bit less exciting all the time. Maybe it's 'cause I always seem to get online at the wrong times...like when no one I want to talk to is online. It's upsetting. And then I get very bored. And want to hurt someone. I'm quite violent....My sister is moving out in less than a month and I want to cry. I don't know what I'm going to do. This sucks. God. Eff it all. This sucks. It sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks. I have been looking at the word "sucks" too much now that it has no meaning and can't even begin to describe the way that I feel right now. I don't know what I'm going to do. And half choir SUCKs. I have no friends in there that want to talk to me [maybe I just have no friends in there at all. I don't know and I don't really care.] so I just sit there feeling depressed. I'm convinced that I'm manically depressed. I have these really manic moments, and then there's these really depressed moments. I don't know about anything anymore. I don't really know anything for sure. And I don't really care about anything much anymore. There's gotta be more than this. Because I don't feel like this is living at all.
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