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My life.... confused
What one's seemed real and near is know a dream and so strange to me,
I lost my self so deep that I don't know what i am any more, and why i am so strange.
lol, It's funny all my good dreams are gone, gone so far all i have every night are nightmares...
Not only that my strong boy is now week, parts of me inside and outside hurt and i don't know why, only that when my time come i will cry and say my good byes,
but one I have died then what will you remember me, will you think of me every night and see all the good thing i have done for all i could help, Would you, Would you, or Will i be forgetting for ever like if I only was a dream that is long forgetting....

this is how i feel how i think know what can i say....
only thing i can do is feel pain in side and lol outside like a madman twisted on till some of my pain is gone ...

And it get worse ever time I look at my self I don't see a me i see a monster,
A dead heartless monster that killed me...


BUT IN THE END ALL I WISH FOR IS HAPPINESS...