i feel very alone...
i feel like a piece is missing from me...
but wat....
well...idk wat it is so i cant talk much about it
all i jus know is that i dont feel like myself...
i hope it doesnt last so i dont act different in school
there are lots of times in school where...where i jus feel like a no one...i feel like jus a wanderer....a watcher....and...idk
i dont do much in school...i dont hang out with "friends"
cuz...technically...i go up to them...say hi....then they start talking to each othr bout something i dont know and i jus walk away hoping there's someone to talk to...
for those of u reading this and go to my school...no...dont hang out with me out of pity...i get too much pity already
i hide myself from the crowd in my little emo mind
i jus solve people and plan ahead
i jus try my best in school so i dont get yelled at and dont get looked down upon
i dont laugh cuz people are funny...i laugh cuz i know its the only thing i could do at a time
i dont smile cuz i'm happy at times...i smile cuz behind it is another meaning
i dont help people for my own...i help them so they dont turn out like me
i am alone...but jus cuz i am...doesnt mean i want to
jus cuz i'm alone doesnt me i want to...i want to change things...i want to wreck the balance of the world to make it better....but no one will gain from it...so...i'll stay in my place...alone...i'll stay there...
i wont let anyone else know me...but that nvr happened cuz i'm too confusing that i dont evn know me that much lol
but still...i dont hav anyone to pour all my feelings to...i dont hav anyone to tell how i feel...
i dont like crying...and all of this is making me cry...but i hate it...it makes me feel pathetic and weak...
without anyone....i'm alone...
 -xky0ko-chanx- · Sun Dec 07, 2008 @ 06:24am · 0 Comments |
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