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Gosh. (Not one of my better days.....) I'm kind of really sad...and really pissed off....I tried crying but I was to angry to...but all at once....all the tears that were building up came out. And those are probably the last tears that I will cry over that one guy.....
This is the 1st failed real relationship I've had....So...My heart is kinda in pain....but not that much.....cuz I was loosing alot of interest in that person....And so in a way....I don't really care that much that we really aren't together anymore...
(Ya. We ARE still together...but I swear....I AM ending it tomorrow!!)
But there were these feelings....that need to disappear....and I am sure they will....pretty soon.
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He is kind of nothing to me now....cuz that's how he sees me....
And apparently he called me a b***h....and hehe....That pissed everyone off...
And I just don't get why if he wants to dump ME so bad why can't he get the balls and do it!!!? scream He's just a selfish b*****d, that was only looking for some poor innocient person to build up and tear down!! And that's what happened!
I hate my self for falling for that little trick....
And I hate my self for even setting eyes on him....7 months ago...(Well....SUNDAY WOULD HAVE BEEN 7months....) (Not that long....but still....)

~Ya....I'm just really trying to forget him...and I shall sucedd.
And I told him....I was gonna come in to him ******** room at night, dressed as a ninja panda and slit his throat with a sword!!! And I am still gonna do what I promised him!! twisted
I, for one, do not break promises ok!!! stare ~

Ya.
xD Happy thoughts are nice....
I need to spend a whole day thinking good thoughts....Instead of going to school tomorrow. Cuz I know there will be alot of s**t just like today!!! And I can't take this ******** drama anymore!!!
There was never a problem with that in meh life before...Until HE ruined it...
Now, especially today, apparently there's a rumor that I am gonna break up with him....which is true....but still....I DO NOT LIKE RUMORS!!! About me of course....
People just have no lives..... (I am refering to everyone in P.e who really aren't my friends....o.o)
But in a way....some weird way....I do kinda like the attention..... twisted
Cuz when the school is burning with pratically everyone in it, I will be the one manically laughing, with the gasoline in my hand, and watching as it burns to the ground!!!! ^^ lol HAHAHA!!!!!

Sadly thinking of death is making me happy....
It's just cause I wanna inflict pain upon those who have hurt me....in the many possible ways.... stare
Anyways.....I'm gonna....eat my Oreos....and forget this ordeal....Cuz I can recover...with the help of beloved and caring people! ^-^