~exasperated sigh~ O.K. EVERYONE is acting jumpy, emotional, anti-social, etc. even me. It's really getting on me nerves. Epically since most of this tension could be laid to rest if only me Mum would LISTEN for half a minuet! If only she would accept that she isn't the only one who's freaking out. If only she would understand...
Ugh!
It's nothing serious, but just... I wish she'd listen to me. To what I really want to say. I mean, I'm not a robot with programmable, predictable emotions... I'm human. I do get sad, and upset. For goodness-sake! I'm a teenage girl! It really shouldn't be hard to grasp that I can be emotional... at least once in a while!
~sighs~ I know one person who thinks they deserve a golden metal for keeping their emotions "hidden". I do it all the time out of habit. Well, not hide, but force I guess. If I feel sad, usually I ignore it, and think of happier thoughts. I try my best not to let my emotions get the better of me. I control my emotions, not the other way around, right? And being depressed, and emotional doesn't help anyone...
But even still. I am human. I am a teenager. And I am a girl. Me being all of these things mean that I will have many emotions. Not just the happy, mature, and understanding ones...
I'm sorry for yesterday you guys. I don't know what came over me, I just... felt a great sadness in my heart. Along with a frightening, and strange vision of cold, gray hands. ~shivers~
Sorry for an emo journal, but... well... I'm human.
P.S. I blame it on the stars N planet, and my father. Oh yeah, he died Monday. Though I'm not bothered. To me, he died a long time ago, before I ever got to know him. Also, I honestly feel the world is a better place without him. Just a little.
P.P.S. Tell your parents to be wary, epically on Mondays, please.
Edit: I've had some time to cool down, and read SesshKag. ♥ I'm feeling better.
Editx2: Now THIS explains something!
Daily Cosmic Calendar: November 27, 2008
Hopefully, you pulled out of the waters of despair yesterday and found a new source of inspiration and contentment. We are only 24 hours into the Pluto-in-Capricorn 16-year cycle and already other dynamic forces are attempting to shift the world's focus. There's a startling one-two punch going on as Uranus ceases its retrograde motion and becomes stationary direct at 8:09AM PST (19 degrees Pisces) while the potent New Moon happens at 8:56AM PST (activating 6 degrees of Sagittarius). All Uranus themes are reinforced -- revolution and radical change, intuition and future shock, surprise and unpredictability, innovation and revelation, the multi-media and high technology, science and metaphysics, astrology and occult teachings, instability and anxiety, the nervous system, breakthroughs and breakdowns. The New Moon signals the start of a 30-day forward drive and it actually carries with it both the highs and lows of the Uranian force-field. Strive to stay on top of events instead of letting them control you. This is especially important when the Moon makes its monthly unions with Mercury (11:32AM PST) and Mars (1:57PM PST) and as Mars parallels Jupiter (3:10PM PST). In this trio of alignments, the Moon-Mercury contact is clearly the best of the bunch -- offering illumination in your key communications, journalistic endeavors and literary pursuits. The Moon-Mars conjunction and Mars-Jupiter parallel can easily trigger discordant vibes around the horn. Don't contribute to the mine fields of animosity by taking pot shots at well-meaning friends and family members. Do something kind and compassionate for the truly needy.
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