Whelp, Today i went all day without eating.
Then when i woke up from my nap at 6 :20pm-ish, I saw a cookie cake and 2 eggrolls cooking in the oven with no one home.
When they were done; I ate both eggrolls, and Half of the foot by half a foot cookie cake.
Boy, did i feel wonderful about myself. My dad had came home by then and 8 he left again to go pick up my brother from this young peoples group.
As soon as he left, i put my hair in a bun, grabbed my toothbrush, whiped the toilet clean, and threw up and up and up and up and up.
It took me a half hour untill i was out and changing my now-soiled shirt. BUT, It wasn't horrible, not in the least. It was quite easy and not breathless barfing like when ur sick with the stomach flu. One poke with the stubby end of my toothbrush and away whent the binge. After a while though, When i poked, nothing happened, I just kinda twinged but not even coughed really. I sopose i hit the bottom of my stomach where that food was already digested and i was too fat to save myself from the calories.
I was afriad to try it because i've heard its nasty and teht taste were horrible. But not at all for me, kinda tasted like what i ate only soggy. Like eating soggy bread, but reversed.
I still feel completely fat and hidious for eating, even tho i think it no longer exsists in my stomach. Key word: I think. I'm not shure if i threw it all up, and i don't really feel hungry. I've heard u get hungry like u never ate after your done, but I'm just shaky kinda and have a runny nose.
I'ma proud of myself for my brave action. And now i knoe its not bad but easy, And I'll surely do it more often now.
GO HUNGRY!
BOO OBESE JAYNE!!
God I'm so ******** fat, ugh, i want to punch myself sometimes. D<
 forcing myself 2b social · Thu Nov 13, 2008 @ 03:01am · 0 Comments |
