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Dear Journal, Today I got onto my myspace only to see my ex from way back when messaged me. You have know idea how bad this person hurt me. He wasnt want you would call your tipical good boy, or your tipical bad boy. He was a completely different person from anyone on this planet. He was a complete bastered, I must say that. But he made me feel so happy, even when he treated me like crap. He was into drugs, smoking, drunking, stealing, lots and lots of sex. Of course I never had sex with him, which might have just been the reason he cheated on me. He left me, in the bloody dark. I have my ******** heart and soul to him and how does he repay me!? He cheats on me and just leaves. Well now 10 months later I see a message from him. Talking about how I used to be so nice, how he tried to bloody call me! I put up with his s**t, his friends s**t, all of this ******** s**t! And he comes telling me how he would have helped me with the next abusive ex I was with! What the hell! I'm shaking, I'm crying, I'm hurting, I'm bleeding. All because of him. He is the one person on this planet I hate. You know the worste part? He's gonna be a dad. A DAD! FATHER! The slut he left me for..is going to be having his kid! Oh my god this is just to much! Why god! Why the hell do you put me through all of this! Not just dating, but life! Yes I probley have a better life then most ******** people! But you know what! I DONT CARE ABOUT ANY OF THAT ANYMORE! I really..just...want to take the easy way out of life...people dieing, lossing homes by being poor, by the fires taking them away.Not being good enough for my own damn family. Wanting to change anyway possible! Its just to much!
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