So... There's a girl named Ebony I've been talking to and I went to meet her for the second time last night. There was no question as to what she wanted from me last night. She was feeling like crap, and me being the way I am, went to be her knight in shining armor.
In short, I comforted her and we ended up having sex. There where problems though. It was very one sided. I didn't really get anything out of it except that she felt better. But there was more to it then even that. I felt NOTHING! I didn't feel love. I felt a strong wish to comfort her, but no love or care. I got no joy from her kisses like I would have from any other girl I've been with.
I'm not sure why, but I have theories. Was her sadness over her ex-boyfriend so terrible that the emotion washing over me ruined my pleasure? Possible. Was it that I didn't feel a real connection? Thats more likely.
I remember that when I had sex with Madison, even though she wasn't experienced, I have never had anyone as good as her. Not because of her skill, but because of the entire experience. I could really relax and pour out love and happiness in waves and it made me feel free and happy. To top it off... there was something... special? The best word I could use is that it "tingled". It was like something about her sent shock waves of very real pleasure though out me that couldn't be described just by tightness or friction. It was special and I expected that feeling but didn't get it. I don't think I could c** for her at this point.
I like Ebony, but the truth is that if Madison came to me, I would take her back and give her all the love in my heart and there wouldn't be a question. I wish she was here...
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