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No1 must know my thoughts, 'fore they are sickening.
The wishes of death; my love for her.
What to do?
Why must it be like this?
Why must I be like this?

Today I was told by a straight boy that it's harder to be a gay man than a lesbian.
How would he know?

I get called a fagget everyday, I'm made fun of constantly because I'm gay, teachers treat me differently, I cut my own hair because I don't want to get the looks that I'm usually given while out in public, my parents do not accept me, my brother thinks I'm a disgusting monster, I was a patient at a mental hospital, I'm suicidal, I love my girlfriend but still have feelings for my 1st ex, I'm always angry or depressed, I'm a waste of precious life.

I know what's wrong with me.
And I know what to do.
But, the only thing stopping me is you.

Yes, depression does get the best of me sometimes. But now it's different. I wont let it.