|
The first few months into this...disaster....I was walking on rainbows, cupcakes and sunshine...it was so blissful...I was on top of the world, I *was* loved. No longer do I feel that, I havn't felt that in so long. I miss it. I'm so cold...
I ask my self why he would do this to me...I can;t come up with any answer...i'm in dinial.
I would be better off breaking up with him...I would be in much less pain. But I am so attached to what he used to be. All the sweet things he would say and do, he would be online for hours just to talk to me...and leaving was so hard. He used to ask to see me on cam all the time...just to see my face. It's been over four months since he has seen me on cam. It hurts....it's like he dosn't want to see me. Or he dosn't want his game to lag.
The day he said he would be on for my birthday. He barley spoke...just a smiley face after everything I said...becuase he was on ******** Wonderland.
-Sighs-
Little bit of venting.
My journal is really all I have left. I can't talk to one single person about everything...and when I say everything..I mean it. I pulled....quite the stunt a few weeks ago...just prooves how lucky I am and not ot mention how stupid I am.
---
Volunteering at the kiddies dance went well...apart from getting news that Meria wanted to beat me up. -__- She is the tinest thing I have ever seen...she wouldn't be able to lay one kick on me. I got lots of compliments on my outfit and my drawings which were part of the prizes.
---
It's saturday night and it's 9:00...i'm crying and there is no one to talk to. I want nothing to do with anyone or anything. I'm going to lay down on my bed in the dark and try to stop this seemingly endless flow of tears.
In short...Guilt-na Doll's life...is going down hill every second....no one is there to catch her.
~GnD
 Guilt-na Doll · Sun Oct 19, 2008 @ 04:01am · 0 Comments |
