i don't like feeling so alone and sad and just depressed but it happens like evry day i'm only happy at school cuz...i hav to... if teachers saw me then they'd ask and annoy me evn tho i'm used to people making fun of me and calling me names... evn tho i say they dont hurt... they do... but they nvr stop... nothings been the same lately i'v felt different lately i'v been sad for no reason...i guess its cuz...idk... but...i jus feel so bad... and i wish my life could start all over again...u know...with friends and i know its been a while already that i said about how i dont fit in... well i still dont and i jus wonder around in school jus looking for people to talk to so that i wont be so lonely to teachers... and now... when i think about my life..i cry...which is...not like me... and...i feel...like i'm falling apart...
and i wish i could tell someone...but i cant put how i feel in words... its like my heart breaking its like my world crashing its like my dreams dieing... but as a rose dies another grows so i guess my heart will renew again i guess my world will start all ovr again and i guess i'll hav new and better dreams soon...
-xky0ko-chanx- · Sun Oct 19, 2008 @ 03:12am · 0 Comments |