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I never knew I would begin to resent everything as I do now. I'm becoming more hateful as time passes. Me trapped in the confusion. I am a prisoner of my own mind. I hate thinking the way I do. I wish I could stop being so negative.
But Life always takes a big s**t right on my head. It teases me too which I hate. Things in my life will go great. Perfect even. Then suddenly everything just goes wrong. Every single time. I hurt very deeply inside and I don't know how to handle it. I feel as though my purpose of life is slipping away. Although now I refuse to commit suicide. I used to be willing to. If I want to die I will just join the military or something instead of pointlessly wasting my life. Well everything I look forward too is always smashed. I hate it I hate my life. But Im not out. I won't Give up. NEVER.