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thoughts.....
I thought i saw someone i never meet but they looked so familiar.Weird huh...Its creepy how things can work out now a days if you think about it for one single moment...but it won't work for the likes of the people these days.Anyways back to what i was saying....say them in a car and they looked so oddly familiar and i just thought things of no certainty right then.Oh thee well its just a thought all like these and there just that and nothing more.But just think for moments of what you could have changed and have made better or if you want have made worse only if we had the power to do that but that would alter what would be left of our sad and pathetic oh this is made to offend who ever reads this(no one reads it I already know)and i know I'm offending myself because my future is more bleak and unpredictable than you think it can be....but whatever im just speaking my mind and nothing more is all.I am a sick person and i know this so that means no one else should question this unless other wise.Okay?Okay.With the desperation of the world I lost most of my hope in it and what nots thats the only thing i do really believe in right now.I am tired of waiting for someone to take me out of this dark abyss someone almost got me out and I was almost free but they let me go to early and I feel straight back in.Back into the never ending darkness but then it welcomes me in its rays of black and in some ways comforts me so I know I am alive and still breathing.Though it's sad thats they wanted to do that but i don't really know anymore.I lost sight of the light that i used to know in the world all i see is this ugly and horrible place now and I'll hate till the end of my days or until i see the light.....I wonder do they know just how important they are to me?That they hold my sanity together and always have but then more and more I've lost them and now I'm going to loose the most important one.........so whatever.Any ways let me continue on what ever this topic is and be done with this once and for all.In this everlasting mess and with my important ones here to help me get though the good and bad times I do pay attention to what happens all around me and all i mostly see is pain,suffering,need,help,greed,wrath,lust and more on things like that and it plain just gets very sad and pathetic after a while you know?Yeah I think you really don't so whatever and lets just think about our loved ones and see what we can do to make all of them happy for now and see where it goes after that okay?Now that thats over with Im going to try and sleep with out being overwhelmed again with this dying love for someone I don't really want to love and with the thought of suicide mixed in there,too.So good night or good day to those of you all now and have a lovely time here in this ugly world of ours.
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