Me i havnt talked about myself here lately so i will i feel like crying but i cant... this is my last year with the people i've known for almost 9yrs... although i dont know they're whole personality..i'll miss them... for the past years i realized evryone would call me a weirdo i always pretended that it wuz a compliment like a synonym of unique... but now that years has gone by..more people make fun of me... my "so called" friends always do that i dont evn know who considers me a friend at times its cuz i'm weird..but others they jus say it randomly in my face... i'm called a lot of names and i ignore it but i cant go on like this i lost so many friends these past years in school i hang out with people that some call are rlly social... although they're my friends they're not the only ones there's another group who jus talk about bands and weird stuff i'm their friend but i dont know most of the stuff they talk about then there's another the guys who like anime/mangas used to by the guys i'd hang out with last year and now we barely talk then there's the guys playing sports and all yeah i dont talk to them much... and...now...i'm like an outcast i dont hav anyone to be with... sure some people see me with the social group but i dont rlly want to be...sometimes... there's no one who can and wants to understand me and i rlly dont care... and i hate this question that is always brought up evry day "who do u like?" i hate that question for the last time people i dont care who i like and i dont know who cuz i dont tend to my feelings anymore cuz they're useless right now.. so now..all i jus wanted to say wuz...i jus wish i had a second chance in life, with friends, and a second chance for myself to hav confidence and another thing... i'm an outcast and i'm afraid of staying that way
-xky0ko-chanx- · Thu Sep 18, 2008 @ 04:42am · 1 Comments |