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Im in full wolf form and I snarl at him. Bermy laughs and I see him coming closer, "back off!!" His hand looms over towerd me. I try ro bite it but he quickly jerks back. I snarl and show my teeth. My mind is racing through who I am, and who I was. I see Bermy looking at me strangley. "I didn't do it" He runs out of the room. I see a window.... I Jump and crash through the window. I land gracfully with shattered glass raining on me and looked up. Bermy was already looking down. I see the forest edge and run inside the thick forest. I run till Im tired, panting and look around. The sun was peeking through the surrounding mountians. I hear birds flap away, little creatures run past me. I walk under a tree and rest a bit. I have to get my breath back or I won't be able to fight. I can't sleep, my mind is racing but my body is so tired. I ache all over. A wolf comes by and sniffs my head. "what do you want?" I don't look up, I can smell its meaty breath on me. "what are you doing?" His voice was deep and proud. I look up and see his mane was long, Grey tips were on the edge. He was a light Blue wolf with tips of grey. He must be a alpha. "I am resting at the moment. I will be running when I hae enough energy." I was trying not to piss him off, VERY bad idea to do that. "you smell of blood and vampire" I looked away, showing neck "yes well I have been living with them for awhile." I sounded worred. "you escaped." I snapped up "not on purpose." I step back. crap, if he find out I betrayed the wolves side, he might kill me. I lower my head "well... you escaped but not on prurpose? that dousn't really add up" I sit down next the alpha "sir its, diffacult, I don't really now why I stayed myself, I just did" His ears were back and he looked away. "well im sorry but you have leave, this is my terratory and you can't be here" I lay down, witch I now is a bad idea at the moment "please sir, I need to rest" I had never been a group but I now it means alot to eachother. He stares down at me "well if your being chased by vampires.... you can come with me, otherwise leave". Dang it, I guess going with him is better then nothing. I get up and walk with him by his side. We stop every now and then while he marked his terratory. I took that time to rest as much as I could.

We finally reached his pack. There were diffrent coloered wolves. some were diffrent sizes, there are few cubs running and changing. They were just kids and they could change. I followed the alpha to his cave, it was kinda small but a small litter could be born here. Looks like there were a few. Everyone glared down at me, "my name is Taki, I am the leader of the Haven Pride. as you can tell like you we are werewolves." I smile and someone snarls at me "what is a outsider doing here alpha!!" "He is running away from vampires. I don't now his story but he is very hurt at the moment" my ears back and tail under me "I can leave if you like" Taki jumps and lands snarling at everyone "now leave him alone!! he is staying here with us for awhile" I walked up behind "sir please, I don't have to stay if it makes everyone uncomfertable." "no you stay, it very clear you have never had a family" I gasp and look averyone. They all stared at me and herded the children away. I stayed away as much as I can but Taki wouldn't let me, he made me fallow him. I thought my tail was going to fall off from it being tucked under for so long. The night fell and Taki wanted a hunt. He chose me and 5 other wolves, Everyone glared at me. "sir please sir, I haven't hunted in 1 year, I had food brought to me" Taki and everyone looked at me strangley "brought to you? well your going to feel the thrill now" we ran fro quite some time. I stayed running in the back, whenever I tryed to be freindly they just snapped at me.

We finally came up to a herd of deer, "everyone spread out and stay low" we all did what we were soppose to. I already felt like I was going to explode, Taki started herding them apart. others incliding me ran when he did. one had seperated and we ran after him. I felt like myself, I wanted the first bite and I got it. I was right next to it when I jumped and chomped down on its neck, it shrieked and I could feel the warm blood down my throat. everyone surrounded it and held it down. I snapped its neck in a instant, I loved the feeling of it.

I relized I wasn't alone. I let go and tucked everything, I bowed my head as everyone dug in. I had to wait since I was the lowest. I was happy though, very happy. I was in a clan, I may be the lowest form but I was still in a clan. Everyone started not eating and I dug in. they rested on the side as the rest of us ate. There was half of it left in witch we carried, I helped as Taki ordered me. Someone else helped but ovoided eye contact. When we got to the den we threw it and everyone else ate. some didn't some did. Cubs certianly scarfed it. Bones were left and everyone went to a tree, cubs yawned and walked to the small cave. I sat down on a low tree branch and sighed heavily. "whats wrong?" Taki was right next to me, "nothing sir, I just miss someone thats all, and kinda confused really" Taki smiled "confused about what?" I wasn't sure wether to tell him or not. I was in a clan and im thinking of Ven, and wondering what I ment to him. "sir the person I left, scared me because, when he was mad.... well.... He was my master and... well.. when he was mad." "Spit it out wolf" I looked away, how was I going to tell him a vampire possibly loved me and always had sex with me, that I stayed by my own will? "sir I left because a vampire was my master and had sex with me all the time. and he hurt me badly" Taki nudged my cheek "well he is gone now and you have no feeling for him right?" I jumped down and stared at the dirt. I could probebly relate to that. "sir did I betray all wolves... by going with the vampires?" Taki growled and started to show teeth "you went with them without a fight?" my ears back and tail under I fell backwerds in place. "sir please, I felt like I had to, Ven came to love me..." one mention of Ven was enough for Taki to Bite my scruff and slam me down. His whole body over me "you were with Ven?!!" I whine "yes sir I was, he wa the one who hurt me. I only did cause I didn't want to get more hurt. im not the type to kill unless I have to" Taki bit my neck, I thought he was going to kill me. He bit harder almost tearing my throat out. He let go but stayed close to my neck "your not spying are you?" "no! no sir im not. I swear" I whimper trying my best to sound like the truth, Ifelt like I was lieing, I really don't want to spy on them but... I have a obligation to the vampires... I think. He chomps my neck harder and I can't breath"your lieing" he snarls. "ack, no... no!" I rasp through his teeth, I don't want to die. He picks me up and slams me agienst the tree. I fall down and caough up blood. "you are leave now, your lieing. you betrayed the wolves." tears overwhelm me, I wobble but get up. I bow my head "thank you for letting me hunt and I promise not to tell anyone about this plece" I limp away, looking back I see Taki walking around checking for enemys. I walk all night not nowing were I will be.

The trees go on forever. I rest a few time and my neck starts to heal. my back aches but I feel it healing too. "there he is!! I found him" a vampire gaurd yells from beside me. I look around and see some others running behind him "oh my god I thought I lost you." Ven runs past them all and almost makes me fall as he hugs me. "were have you been, we couldn't go out all day due to the sun but we sent some humans to help us." I let him hug me for a moment before I harshly grabbed his shoulder throwing him agienst the tree. Blood drips from his shoulder and my mouth. "back ooff" I snarl at everyone. I glare at Ven, he seemed very surprised. I stomp him and lick his wound as his blood drips from my mouth. "im on vacation" I jump from tree to tree till I and on a branch. I watch Ven just sit there and everyone gather around him. I see Bermy look up at me and smile. I spit at his feet taking with the last of Vens blood out of my mouth. I run atop the tree branches getting as far away as I could.

Siddenly I feel a surge from my neck, I fall from my Branch landing on my side. I feel shocks going through me. I turn human as the shocks increase. I can't control my changing. I grab the coler and try to pull only to yell in aganizing pain. Ven walks behind me "im sorry but you must come with me" I try and get up by the shocks just jolt back. "what did you?" Ven orders gaurds to help me up "its shock spells, in case I lose something thats mine" He turns around as the gaurds pick me up and I see Ven's shoulder still bleeding. I knock the gaurds off me and run to Ven, When I get slammed down. Bermy had hit me right on the back. He kept me in place as Ven turns around. "Bermy what are you doing?" He digs my head into the ground "he tried to attack you from behind" I mumble trying to get my head up, Bermy lets up "no I was going to explain to him why I left him.... and why I bit him" Ven hold his shoulder as Bermy slams my head back down "your lieing!" I struggle trying to get my head free but Bermy lies on top of me Tieing my hands. I remember him on top of me before "NO!! I swear im not lieing!! please get off me!" im desprate and struggle alot. I try and roll him off but he holdds me down with all his wight. Ven runs to Bermy and trys to push him off but he only has one working arm. Bermy get off when he finishes tieing my arms together. I try to roll away but Bermy forces me up. "Im sorry, Im sorry!!" I whine as my arms are twisted in the worst way. I thought they were going to be ripped off. "your coming with us, thats final!" Ven hugged me with his arm "im sorry Ven, I wasn't really thinking" I whisper in his ear. "its my fault" I want to hug but I oput my head on his non torn shoulder. He let go and has 2 gaurds guide me back to Bermys castle. The sun starts peeking and I am led to a room with no windows. There is a bed and a bathroom. The door had locks on it. I guess im in trouble, Bermy pushes me in. I slam my face on the gristle cemant. ow thats hurt, "im sorry please don't touch me" Bermy comes up to me and slams his wight on my body. "NO!! please no more!!" Bermy unties me and walks to Ven, He whisperd something but I can't hear it. Both of them leave and I crawl to a corner. I hug both my legs and cry. I try and feel what I felt the night I went on a hunt. I fall alseep in the corner, trying to scrunch myself up to a ball.