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So....um...yeah, Not a story this time but....I feel a bit....well....upset yes but also I feel so....hollow. Y' know like those things in Bleach with a hole in thier chest? I feel like a Hollow. Because me and the one I like or love whatever went seprate ways so I feel like I have a hole in my chest that just goes through my heart y' know? So I won't feel any 'real emotion' in a long time. I might act happy or seem happy but I have a feeling that I won't feel real happiness in a very long time. For how long? I have no clue. So the only thing I will feel is sadness and emptyness but I almost completly forgot about him so far...But my feeling just kept coming back to Kakashi Hatake from Naruto. At first he was the only one I truely loved and that was the real reason I liked no one else. So I tried to think of him only as a senpai should y' know? But....no matter how much I try to think about that he just seems soo...dreamy and stuff. I first fell in love with him as soon as I first saw him in Naruto about two years before they put Naruto to english and I have always thought about him since. Ugh, I hate this! This...emptyness, I want to end this weird feeling bt I have no clue. I know girls always said to get a new lover or someone else after a 'break up' but I'm not ready yet....<sigh> I have no clue how to stop this feeling......I want help but not from my mom or anyone I need help from someone else.....And why does my feelings always go toward Kakashi? I can't help it he makes my heart race but I know it's going to be hard to find a man like Kakashi.
Strong,
Handsome,
A great person who's shy and strict at times,
A person that understands,
A person that won't leave anyone alone,
Knows that working as a team is better then being alone,
A leader but also a helper.
I hate this and the things is I can't tell weather this is heartbrake or am I turning into a hollow? A monster with no feelings but always feels numb?