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This is a sad story I wrote about a year ago and I finnaly got around to editing it. I warn you now that it's extremely sad, so if you don't like don't read. The characters have no names. Song: Untitled by Simple Plan

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I had a friend when I was younger,and we would spend most of our free time together hanging out or messing around in a feild we had found. The feild was beautifull, and big, with a ton of wild flowers. The grass was a brilliant green, but not a lot of people had heard of it, and one day as we where going to the feild I tripped and he was in front of me so I fell on him,and we started laughing.

I open my eyes,
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light

It was like a merry-go-round with just me and him, flowers surrounding us as we span around in mock dance.All the problems just washed away in the pure happieness of the moment, all the sadness, all the pain, everything. Little did I know that 'everything' was about to drop on me ten-fold as my life collapsed on that faithfull day...

He was my everything, my heart, my soul, and I didn't notice until it was too late. We where out running errands when it happened,and I wasn't paying attention. He grabbed my arm and pulled me back, but he was still there, and it hit him. I was utterly powerless...he just layed there not moving and covered in blood. I couldnt stop crying. Nothing could control what had happened but, I wish that he hadn't noticed because then he wouldn't have taken the fall alone.

I can't remember how,
I can't remember why,
I'm lying here tonight

It was raining and I heard sirens in the distance, but I knew that nothing could fix this, nothing could take the pain away both physically and mentally. Of course I wasn't hurt too much besides a few cuts and scrapes. He on the other hand I..I just couldnt say. The one thing that got me though was that he smiling though very weakly. Why, why would he smile while death was staring him in the eye? Was he happy that I hadn't gotten hurt? I just couldn't stand it.

and I can't stand the pain
and I can't make it go away
no I can't stand the pain


I didn't care if I was soaked, or if my knee hurt, I stayed by his side the whole time because if anything it was the only thing I could do. His breaths where slow, and ragged, and I knew he wouldnt last long, and right before he drew one last breath, he said three words to me, three words that would impact me more than anything else in the world. He said "I love you..." and that was it. He was gone leaving me there all alone. The tears still came and I remember that he was still smiling even when he was gone and the image burned itself into my memory.

How could this happen to me?
I've made my mistakes,
got nowhere to run
the night goes on as I'm fading away

I just sat in my room afterwords. The effect of those words still ringing in my head as the tears rolled down my cheeks. In a whisper I said it hoping that wherever he was he could hear me "I love you too..."

I'm sick of this life
I just want to scream
how could this happen to me?