*Travis and I dated for a short while. Then we broke up. He used the 'lets be friends again' approach, but now things are just really awkward between us. He doesn't seem to notice. For him, i guess everything's back to normal. But whatever, I don't mind at all that we broke up. I mean, yeah, i kinda liked him at first, but then it was like 'eh'. and normally i wouldn't have said yes, but he stuck me in a position where saying no would be worse than just saying yes. rolleyes
*I had my birthday in june. Only taylor ended up being able to come but it was still fun. Not as much fun as new years - but i'm not getting into that. lol
*Tomorrow I'm leaving for Cour' d' Alene ID. I have family up there that i'll be visiting. After that we're driving down to Moscow (still Idaho) where I used to live before moving to California. I'm really excited, but i'm also really kinda afraid. There's this guy there who I've like since THIRD GRADE, and after I moved we were talking over msn and he confessed that he also liked me in third grade. I really want to tell him that i still like him, but i'm not sure he feels the same. I mean, i did ask him one time why he always said that he was happy if i asked him on msn, and he replied 'maybe it's because I get to talk to you.' but friends can say that to eachother, right? especially if they haven't seen eachother in 2 years? and then I've been listening to this song:
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Shes walking there alone,
No one by her side
She manages to fight the tears, but
The pain inside
She cant hide
And all the tears shes cried
The moment she closes her eyes, she starts
Thinking of you
The dreams that she had one time
Have gone away
Will they ever come true?
All she needs is all she needs is you
And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
And loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind that it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared it was true
You never thought about it,
What you made her feel
You promised youd stay together,
But the hope she once had so unreal
All she needs is all she needs is you
And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
And loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind that it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared it was true
(One year ago by Lene Marlin)
No one by her side
She manages to fight the tears, but
The pain inside
She cant hide
And all the tears shes cried
The moment she closes her eyes, she starts
Thinking of you
The dreams that she had one time
Have gone away
Will they ever come true?
All she needs is all she needs is you
And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
And loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind that it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared it was true
You never thought about it,
What you made her feel
You promised youd stay together,
But the hope she once had so unreal
All she needs is all she needs is you
And she wishes today
Was one year ago
When you cared so much for her
And loved her so
Not a doubt in her mind that it would still be you
Cause the love that you shared it was true
(One year ago by Lene Marlin)
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and its making it hard because it sounds so much like what could happen if we did get together. maybe i'm over thinking this. Allison said that she'd talk to him about me, see if she could figure him out, but I don't know if she'll be able to. Theyre not really good friends or anything, so she cant just call him up and be like "hey!' but you never know. In moscow you run into people ALL the time. If i were religious i'd probably be praying that she does get to talk to him, though. I don't want to tell him and make things really awkward. he is one of my closer friends.... So i don't know what i'll do. I'd like to say that I'll just tell him no matter what, but... well, we'll stick with that. I won't write until i get back home
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