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i have this secret, and only a small circle of my friends know. at first, it was only me and my best friend. we went threw all of it together, learned everything together, and basically had to struggle threw all of it on our own. then one of my guy friends told me that he was going threw the same thing, so me and my best friend let him in on our secret. my little group went from 2 to 3. then we found out another of my guy friends was involved in this, too. so the group went from 3 to 4. then one of my girl friends told me she had the same problem. so the group grew to 5. now, 2 days ago, i found out one of my other friends lives with the same problem. but i'm not ready for my little circle to grow anymore, because i am the protector of this group, and i am also the teacher of the new members. i'm not ready to have a big group yet. i guess it would be easier to have a big group,because then i would have less pressure on me, but i'm not ready to train any more people, and i'm just not ready to bond with another person. i mean, this new person is already close to me,but................i'm just not ready. is it too much to ask for a couple more months?