so whne I was 10 (am 16 now) I lost alot no all of my RL friends, I just wanted to die, my life was so horrible, I hated it. I started going on a site alittle bit like gaia, and I had alot of friends, and wat I loved about it was I was only ever me, I didn't have to change to fit in. anyways I try to kill myself when I was 11 and had to go to hospital for 2 weeks, when i got back at school no one cared, it made me so sad I was sending 6 hours aday with people that didn't care. anyways when I got back on this site all my friend where the hell were you we missed you" I told them and I loved the fact that they said stuff like "well I'm glad ur back, don't leave us again" not "OMG are you okay" and they didn't ask me how I was ever, coz I elt I could tell them when something was wrong, in RL I never tell anyone anything I hate my life it sucks, and I still want to die, I have tryed form time to time, but never end up doing if because of people that I meet online, coz I feel like you guy no more about me then my family, I really don't like the fact that I feel like my only real friends aren't real(in a way) but you guys are always there okay so jsut stay there coz you're holding me together
no one will ever read this, and no one will ever know that I cried writing the whole thing and oddly, I'm okay with that
lil_sweet_huni · Sat Jul 05, 2008 @ 03:06pm · 1 Comments |